Almost every teacher who has ever mentioned this subject to me says the same thing: they don’t teach you nearly enough about exceptional children in university.
The strange part about that, I find, is that many of the teachers who have told me that were university professors. So they know about the issue, but…they have no intention of fixing it? Or they are unable to do so? I understand that changing the curriculum for ANYTHING is extremely time-consuming, but…I don’t know. I don’t blame any of my professors for the lack of training available; it just seems like a strange situation.
To be perfectly honest, I’m pretty nervous about teaching students with special needs. I have been informed ahead of time that my training here at university will not even come close to preparing me for those students, and that is not a confidence booster. I worry that I will fail them. I worry that I will make mistakes, or I won’t do everything I can/should, and they won’t get the kind of care/attention/education they need and deserve.
I have every intention of doing everything in my power to help every single one of my students succeed. But what good are my intentions when my training is insufficient? I am a high achiever. I don’t feel comfortable giving anything less than my best to anyone I serve, and the idea that there is no way I will be able to do that (even if it’s only at first) disturbs me. I will learn on the job, or so I assume, but…how can that possibly be good enough?
If there is anyone reading this who has teaching experience in this realm, give me a shout. My insecurities as a teacher-in-training could really use some beating down just now.